It always starts out the same way. I start feeling anxious, uncomfortable, discontent – any negative emotion you can think of. I usually try to fix it by getting a new hobby or fixing my attention on something to numb the ache. All that this manages to accomplish is to further frustrate me and make me realize how much I need life. LIFE.

When I sit down and start writing the words that I feel, I always come to the same conclusion. Time with You. This is what my soul longs for. This is why I experience frustration and anxiety and fear and loneliness. I long for you as a deer pants for water. My soul needs to reach out to You and be touched by Your life-giving Spirit.

“AS THE hart pants and longs for the water brooks, so I pant and long for You, O God. My inner self thirsts for God, for the living God. When shall I come and behold the face of God?” Ps 42:1-2

You are life-giving and real. You don’t exist far away, You are close to me this very second. You are intimately acquainted with my life and You know my thoughts afar off. I will never find delight in anything other than You. You are the essence of joy – you are the perfect solution to my heart’s cry. You bring peace and you wrap me in the softness of your love. I feel at peace in You. I find myself in You. The anxious thoughts in me goes quiet at the sight of your beauty. Your presence is the only encounter I need.

I love you with all my heart. Thank you for saving me and choosing to be with me, mistakes and all. You are wonderful and good.


A God who sympathizes

Many influences in your life might have shaped the way you see God. Many people see God as a clinical God, who goes about the business of His day without much regard for us ‘lowly’ people. In a previous post I spoke about God being very near to us, not somewhere far away. In this post I want to focus on the fact that God is able to empathize with our circumstances, understanding what we are going through.

“When Jesus saw her sobbing, and the Jews who came with her [also] sobbing, He was deeply moved in spirit and troubled. [He chafed in spirit and sighed and was disturbed.]…Jesus wept.” John 11:33,35

Jesus did not act distant when he saw how sad Mary and the rest of the Jews were. He felt their pain and sadness, and He also wept with them. To empathize means to understand, to share or to put oneself in another one’s shoes. It denotes a deep deep emotional understanding of our feelings or problems.

“For we do not have a High Priest Who is unable to understand and sympathize and have a shared feeling with our weaknesses and infirmities and liability to the assaults of temptation.” Heb 4:15

You can know without a doubt that God understands what you are going through. He has empathy. He has a deep understanding of the feelings you experience. You are not alone! His Spirit abides in you and is your constant companion.